The World As I Know IT

new phone

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 23:13:43 GMT

i just got the new droid! I love it! woot! way better than my blackberry! YAY for the new year... now if I could only find a freaking job!

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 02:25:35 GMT

So I just got done working 80hrs traveling... BLAH. I am so glad it over! I get to go to Memphis for 3 days of fun, then have thanksgiving, then take the GRE! ECK! So much to do.. I am so freaking tired I think I am going to bed! Night folks!

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 06:44:28 GMT

I am having an anxiety attack for no reason. Its like every time I REALLY want to sleep my body decides to freak out and go nuts... I wish Joe was here... I am in a freezing room and sweating... I hate my life

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 17:12:27 GMT

I just set up my crazy next few weeks! AHHHHHHHH.... I am going to be traveling EVERY day of the week(not the weekends) for the next 3 weeks! BLAH! Alteast I will have tons of alone time to study for the GRE and to hopefully work out or something... at hotels... SUCKS!

last night

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 18:22:47 GMT

So last night I went to the bar with Joe, Emelie, Bryant and then some of Joes friends showed up later. Anywho we went as dominos and Bryant went as the Watchman. We had a fun time looking at all the other costumes and drinking. Then when I saw one of my friends I went and talked to him. On my way back to our table this guy tapped my arm. So I was like "yes?" and he said "I bet I can touch all of your buttons in 30 secs" I said "I bet not because first I would kick your ass, then my boyfriend would kick your ass" He looked upset and his friends were like "hahaha" and honestly he was the table behind us, so he was like staring us down the rest of the time. The great thing though is because of how we were sitting he couldn't figure out who was my boyfriend. So I told everybody and Bryant was actually sitting next to me and we kept whispering, then he put his watchman mask on and was like turning at the dude and making funny gestures! It was so freaking funny! Then Joe's friends did it too! I had a great time because some guy tried to hit on me! HAHAHAHAHA!

Also I went and saw baby Johnathon. He was cute. I got to hold him and it was nice. He has a lazy right eye, they said it might be his tear duct. I hope so because it was pretty intense and I would want to get it fixed asap if it were my kid. Anywho. I guess I feel better about being an "aunt" now.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 23:06:00 GMT

my hair looks good today. My eyes look good today. Joe's roomie is staying home today... my dads fortune cookie was nuts today(its on FB). at least I got some good kisses today!

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 16:37:41 GMT

I am alone..... utterly alone......... these emotions are SOOOOOOOOO not good for me. I think the shot is making me depressed... but I think that I would have eventually gotten there soon anyways. It just made it happen sooner than normal....... its pretty sad that I have to watch a comedian make fun of people to smile....

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 20:25:44 GMT

So I scheduled my appointment to get the shot. I looked it up to check it out and everywhere says people gain weight when they go on it. However their is no mention of if you have already been on bc. I have had bc for 6 years and the shot is cheaper, which is why I am looking at it right now. I would only need it for like 6 months, then I could switch back cause I could afford my bc. I just want to test it but I dont want to balloon. On the research I looked at it said that the girls gained weight over three years. It also says you can become more depressed.. eck! I guess I will just have to talk with them next monday, if I dont like the discussion then I will just pay for the bc, if not... well then yea.......

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 05:24:29 GMT

If you dont know by now I have a fear of the number 26.

Recap:

the 25th of September is my and Joe's anniversary. He spent it in carbondale being an ass... he stood me up, etc.

at 12:06am entering into the 26th I get a phone call:

"The TV was stolen"

"uhuhhuh"(me waking up)

"The TV, the computers everything was stolen when I was in the bar"

"WTF! how did that happen... did you not lock the windows"

"No I did they broke in the back door."

As this is going on all I can think of was... well u stood me up, then went to have fun with your man girlfriend dude and my TV was stolen..... If you would have just stayed home then you would have heard them and called the police....

life is such a bitch and I am sooo mad bc now im going to have to deal with insurance companies, etc to get this all fixed...

I am never going to get my fucking ring... I am never going to get married bc stupid shit like this ALWAYS happens........ Honestly I think this is some cruel sick joke.... Is it from God? I hope not... if you wanted me or Joe to go back to church this was not the way... if it is just fate... then what am I to think? Is joe ALWAYS going to have a series of unfortunate things happen to him? I dont know but I honestly cant deal with it at all........

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 16:35:46 GMT

I need a schedule......... I guess I will have to wait until Nov. for a solid schedule...

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 17:04:12 GMT

stupid open house.... now i am going to miss trippin billies as they will be in c-dale on my anniversary TEARS>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Dreams

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 14:33:02 GMT

So I remember all my dreams from last night, though the earlier ones are more foggy.

Dream 1:
Joe and I were getting ready to get married and we were at some campy place that had an ocean/river where you go scuba. Anywho, so we are hanging out and everything is great then some girl, who he thought died (like the show I watched before I went to sleep) showed up! He was all of a sudden talking to her and I asked him if he was in love with her and he didnt know. So I started crying. I just couldnt understand. She was with him everywhere, he ignored me. Then the day of our wedding he told me we would get married and he didnt love her. SO I was happy and got dressed, then someone came and said they couldnt find him. So I ran out and my dress was going to get torn so I changed and kept running to find him. I ran all over the place looking for him, I found him scuba diving and he turned to see me on the bridge all crazy like. So he came up the stairs and was wondering what I was doing and I told him they told me he was lost and I was scared. He said they were silly. So then I had to find my dress and I did and I was at the place and talked with people and found people for people, then we got married (but I dont remember that part).

Dream 2:
So in this dream I was SUPER pregnant. I wasnt the only one two, Eric got this brown haired girl preggers, and Cassy was pregnant again. we were all fat and it was kinda weird, but we all went into labor on the same day. Erics girl went first and she had a baby girl, then cassy another girl whom she named Luna (Something), then it was my turn. I was outside though on a bed and mom was there, Joe was there, and Brittany was there. My water broke then I had really bad contractions and it was like something was wrong... but I couldnt do anything. then I woke up....

Dream 3:
was just a happy dream!

So yea! This was all my dreams last night! Crazy right!

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 19:36:39 GMT

So I went to Art today and it was soo much fun!!! I missed all the fun I had. I have so much creativity that needed to come out! Now I am also going to take that creativity into wedding planning!! I am starting this now b/c if I wait until Joe asks me it will be like a mad rush >_<. So I am doing an Autumn theme. The main things are going to be Sunflowers, pumpkins/squashes, and apples. I am sooo excited for this and it is the only thing that helps me get through my day sometimes. I wish I had tons of money to make it better... oh well.

On a sad note.......... I just found out my aunt Edith died today. Ending her long battle with bone cancer... I will miss you.

Dream

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 14:44:04 GMT

So my dream right before I woke up was nuts! Here goes:

So Joe and I were packing because he was going to a military/firefighter camp/training thing. Instead of it just being him though it was me too! I was going with him because I wanted to try what he did. So amist the packing we were making out and we wanted to do more but it was as if everyone was there!!! No one would leave and we didnt get to do anything. I was freaking out too because I didnt have any uniforms but he did so I was going to be an outcast. Then it skipped to the airport and we were around some of his friends and they were making fun of me and stuff. I just ignored them. Then we were in the pool and we had to run in the pool and we have to jump up every 5 spaces to get air and we had to do that 42 times. Well I was doing it and ended up being the first done but I went longer so I would have to get made fun of. Then we were getting out the guys were giving me shit and so was Joe so I schooled them on being done first and then got out before everyone else. They were pissed. Then there was this game to see who could get to their room first by taking off their wet clothes, yet still not being naked. So the dream left me with my shoes and shorts in my hands and me trying to get my t-shit off..... Craziness!

So yea that was my dream. I think I may workout today or do something different!

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 01:10:02 GMT

I hate my life.
I have one friend here and it is not enough.
I dont want to teach like mom thought I would.
I need to tell the teacher I am not going to teach.
I need to find a job.
I need a purpose.
I miss Joe so much that waking up in the morning without him just plan hurts.
I have contemplated moving back to carbondale.
I need help.

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 01:04:12 GMT

im so wiped.....

dream

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 12:50:50 GMT

So I had the craziest dream EVER last night! I was at this dress studio with Ashley and Dad and we were looking at Wedding dresses and the lady wanted me to get a prom dress b/c it would be cheaper... but they were all ugly. Then when I went to look at the wedding dresses she disappeared and another lady came. Then Mallory (this girl I work with) showed up in her boyfriends pants, who was Nathan... Then Nathan and Dad were at a table eating cake when all the pretty dresses disappeared and they started a fashion show, upon which I left...

crazy... Also there were these fat chicks in nasty bridesmaids gowns and I told Ashley "dont worry I would never do that to you" she replied, "Thanks"

So yea

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 12:52:29 GMT

I broke my toes... end of story.

disconbobulated

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 20:30:36 GMT

So my life has been utterly CRAZY lately. My computer broke I got the new hard drive installed then realized that I need a Vista Systems cd that they never gave me.... GREAT... NOT. Im going crazy at work and I have .........PIMPLES!!! ECK! im way super excited about being in Evansville for like 4 days!!! WOOT!!!! Ive missed my special people. I want to get my hair cut and dyed... Ashley??? I need a new me! I started my healthier eating, which was already healthy just no more late night pizza runs. I am sending my application to the Warrick County School Corp to substitute! everything is going smoother!! I feel better too, not so moody and depressed like I was two weeks ago! for the first time in 3 years im excited about the Fall... Life is good... so it can only get better

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 19:15:52 GMT

So I came home and there are TONS of guys here!!!! ECK! not kool! but I bought two books from barns!!! YAY!!! I cant wait till they get here!!! im sooo needy for a good read! I also have my hard drive on the way, it in Iowa now!!! only a state away!!!!!!! WOOT! I took Lauren to evansville with me and we had super fun! im going to miss her when she leaves, im hoping we stay in contact! Im sad that I didnt get to spend alot of time with all my friends when I was home but I will be moving there shortly and get to all the time!!!! Smooches

life

Fri, 29 May 2009 02:01:53 GMT

So ive been way super busy!! I went to eville last week and then to springfield. Now im back and I got my old job back (with a raise) and i have a SOAR program tomorrow! Tonight Eric and I made super hot awesome stuffed shells!!! They were SOOOO fucking good!! I loved them! yummy!!! im super stoked because I leave for Jamaica on Tuesday!!! WOOT!!! im really upset about my belt that broke though... I just bought it and it broke like 4 days later WTF!

Thu, 28 May 2009 03:46:05 GMT

im fucking tired... I want to update though so maybe tomorrow???

Fri, 15 May 2009 22:43:03 GMT

So im conflicted about leaving my job, as yesterday was my last day... it was bitter sweet. im done though...........

IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE

Fri, 08 May 2009 16:56:55 GMT

im done getting edgemacated... I took my last final... now im getting my hair done and prepareing for tomorrow since it looks like the outside party moved indoors... thank rain... NOT

Wed, 06 May 2009 04:42:36 GMT

Is going crazy and trying not to care... a hard thing to do